Strange Brain

     I keep having these crazy dreams and I wake up at like 3am with all these idea's for art projects but then I pass right back out and can't remember all of it in the morning. It's weird. I have all this ambition building up inside of me, I'm working towards freeing myself in order to focus on my reading and faith. But in the process of working towards this... it's like I'm opening up more of the artistic area of my brain. I remember learning that the more the brain is stimulated, the more the brain takes in. I have absolutely no idea whether or not that has anything to do with this... just crossed my mind so I jotted it down.
     I'm doing this strange thing... I glance at something and for a split second I see the object outlined with pencil on white paper... it's strange I know... how do you think I feel?! And it's not just with new objects, I'm talking EVERYTHING... I just glanced up at the cat tower in my living room and saw it sketched on white paper. I have never heard of anything like this before. It creeps me out... especially when I look at other people and see THEM sketched... eeeeeven creepier... jussayin!
     I know I have always had a bit of a creative side, not like some super crafty or super artsy type of person with really awesome talent, but I've always doodled, much like most other people. I love to paint, color, make crafty things, use recycled materials to make things, I've always enjoyed drawing cartoon characters, and I have a knack for putting my feelings onto paper using oil pastels. But, this... this is just crazy. It's like I want to draw absolutely everything I see. I feel this really strong urge to create something new. I don't know anything about sewing but I see patterns and I'm suddenly designing a dress in my head... and I don't even wear dresses! Well, rarely, not since I've gained weight anyway. I see a neat house and BOOM, I'm doodling a layout for a house. Of course, these doodles are just that... Doodles.
     I have no idea what is going on with me. I'm creeped out yes, but I'm also enjoying it. I like creating new things. I have been writing more lately, trying to write every single day like I used to. I have been writing more poetry like I used to, short stories, blogging, and my prayer journal. I've been listening to more instrumental music and I often catch myself sitting very still trying to hear each instrument and the different tones and pitches... I've never been so... in tune with everything I see and hear... that's the part I am enjoying. I also chopped off my hair. just to try something new... I've never had a hair style like this before... ever... I need to touch it up a bit, but I'm loving it.
     I really wish I could sew. I have so many idea's for clothing, and I have a lot of material! I also have some pillows and what not I want to put together. Ugh. This is the part where I wish I had stayed in Tennessee because than Mama Jean could've taught me. Or, someone. Maybe I can find someone from church to spend some time teaching me... oh that's a great idea!! I'm gonna send out an email blast about it, yessss... thanks brain lol. My brain is always on overdrive... geeeeeees... I'm just glad I'm a nicer person now because it would be bad if my brain was on overdrive while I was angry and hateful and insensitive... maybe that's WHY my brain is all ADD now... because I AAAAAM happy finally... oooh... that makes sense.... still creeped out by some of these things though... jussayin