I BELIEVE

I... am a Woman of Faith.
I have convictions and beliefs and love that will Not be taken from me and I will never give away or give up.

     Many may not understand what I feel <unfortunately> but none the less - I FEEL IT! Those who have known me since BEFORE my walk with God began, can vouch for the fact that OBVIOUSLY something changed in me! Drastically! and VERY quickly! I may not be able to explain it all yet, and I may never be able to explain it, but I can tell you this...
     I found a love I never knew I could feel. I never thought a love like this existed. I never thought I could feel so free with the amount of anxieties and issues I had. I never thought I would be so happy. I know Jesus died on the cross for our sins. I believe it with all of my heart. I know God loves us and forgives us and accepts us as we are... broken... empty... alone... angry... And He MENDS our broken hearts and broken bodies. And He FILLS our empty souls! And He COMFORTS us through everything and loves us just as we are! And He CALMS our anger and SOOTHS our souls... and SHOWS us that HE IS OUR FATHER!
     I BELIEVE these things with ALL of my heart! I am a new woman! Every day I struggle ,of course! It's not supposed to be easy! God didn't give us an Easy Button like Staples has! Although.... haha. No. He provides us with His promises, love, and open arms! That is all we need when we are struggling... right? someone to make us feel safe and believe...? Right? That's all I have EVER needed... and never found until I found Jesus. Sure, I felt safe in my dad's arms... but.... Not WHOLE. Not ENTIRELY 100% safe from danger. With Jesus... THAT is how I feel! He is my Savior! No one on the face of this planet could EVER love me more than He, or even come close.
     I feel alive! THANK YOU JESUS! I feel amazing! I pray that I am able to help another find this same joy. If God has me do anything at all... I pray that my testimony and my faith brings at LEAST one other person to Him. If that happens, I would be ready to go at any point. Until then I'm gonna hold on to EVERYTHING lol. just kiddin. I know God has a plan for me and I finally understand that no matter how small my life may seem in the big picture... without it... the big picture isn't complete.... EACH of us... we ALL have a purpose. A REASON FOR BEING HERE! All of us. I feel it. And I am going to continue to let God guide me in whatever direction He has planned out.

God Bless

An Instrumental Life

Lately I have found myself enjoying more instrumental music than any other type of music... It seems to have triggered my creative side a bit more than I am used to. NOT COMPLAINING... just recognizing.

I have been rockin' some Lindsey Stirling, Beats Antique, & 2cellos a LOT... and of course there's the lovely Carter Burwell and the Infamous Claude Debussy! I just love the intimacy of pure instrumental's... it shows passion beyond music its self. I often catch myself with my eyes closed and just deep inside the sounds of these beautiful instruments! I used to think that I had a very open mind especially with music, but recently I have found that I didn't... not before... but now... I feel I truly do have a completely open mind to all types of music. I can appreciate all types, even polka... which I used to despise.

I notice the instrumental music in movies more than I used to... I bet most people have no idea that what they are feeling during each movie is often triggered by an instrumental piece that they don't even notice is playing. I never used to notice.

Each moment in my life now I feel more than I ever did before... I know that this is God working in my heart. However, this music also plays a role... which God opened my eyes to by playing Lindsey Stirling on the Contemporary Christian station I play on Pandora...so Thank You Father, for opening my eyes and my heart to the instruments you have provided in every part of my life.